Doing it for me.

gettinghealthy5eva:

yoga-body:

healthyandhappyandhopeful:

yogadinosaur:

*Insecurity Post*

The photo on the left was me five pounds before my low weight. I had a million dance injuries that refused to heal, I had no period, I had thinning hair, my whole world revolved around food and exercise. This was about two years ago.

The photo on the right was taken a week or two ago. There is over a forty pound difference between the two pictures. I have gained a lot more than weight though. I have gained new hobbies. I have gained friends. I have gained muscle. I have reconnected with my family. I have gained curves. I gained having a period. I gained life.

Yeah, my body isn’t perfect. I am still trying to figure out what the best weight for me is. I might need to tone up a bit. I have stretch marks. I have cellulite. 

It doesn’t matter though.

What does matter is that I have never been happier. I no longer cry myself to sleep at night. I have never been more comfortable in my own skin. I have never been more excited about the future.

Recovery isn’t about gaining weight. It isn’t just about eating or controlling one’s exercise habits. It is about getting your life back. I’ve done that. 

OMFG this is amazing and I am so proud :’)

Agree with the previous comment :)

“I gained life” 

Beautiful! Congratulations :)

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gettinghealthy5eva:

yoga-body:

healthyandhappyandhopeful:

yogadinosaur:

*Insecurity Post*

The photo on the left was me five pounds before my low weight. I had a million dance injuries that refused to heal, I had no period, I had thinning hair, my whole world revolved around food and exercise. This was about two years ago.

The photo on the right was taken a week or two ago. There is over a forty pound difference between the two pictures. I have gained a lot more than weight though. I have gained new hobbies. I have gained friends. I have gained muscle. I have reconnected with my family. I have gained curves. I gained having a period. I gained life.

Yeah, my body isn’t perfect. I am still trying to figure out what the best weight for me is. I might need to tone up a bit. I have stretch marks. I have cellulite. 

It doesn’t matter though.

What does matter is that I have never been happier. I no longer cry myself to sleep at night. I have never been more comfortable in my own skin. I have never been more excited about the future.

Recovery isn’t about gaining weight. It isn’t just about eating or controlling one’s exercise habits. It is about getting your life back. I’ve done that. 

OMFG this is amazing and I am so proud :’)

Agree with the previous comment :)

“I gained life” 

Beautiful! Congratulations :)

(via lightweight-daydream)

Anorexia PSA

beautythroughhealth:

i’ve seen a lot of pro-ana blogs claim that anorexia will make them happy, pretty, lovely. it will give them friends and people will like them if they have anorexia.

the top picture is the last picture i have of me at a happy, healthy weight. i had been weight restored for nearly a year, after recovering from anorexia. i was getting ready to go to a party the night this was taken (the only party i’ve been to since).

i liked myself, i took care of myself, i nourished my body.

me when i was weight-restored/recovered is a lot like what pro-ana blogs think they will achieve by ‘getting’ anorexia.

now, a year later, here i am at the bottom picture. i’ve relapsed. i feel horrible all the time (physically & mentally).

i might not weigh as much as i did in the first picture, but i feel a million times bigger. every minute of every day is torture.

torture because i’m ripping my family apart. torture because i’m isolating myself. torture because i’m killing myself and i can’t stop. torture because anorexia physically hurts. i have to sit on pillows and i can’t wear a purse strap anymore because it’s excruciatingly painful. i can’t hug my boyfriend or hold my puppy.

an eating disorder won’t make you happy. an eating disorder will destroy you.

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beautythroughhealth:

i’ve seen a lot of pro-ana blogs claim that anorexia will make them happy, pretty, lovely. it will give them friends and people will like them if they have anorexia.

the top picture is the last picture i have of me at a happy, healthy weight. i had been weight restored for nearly a year, after recovering from anorexia. i was getting ready to go to a party the night this was taken (the only party i’ve been to since).

i liked myself, i took care of myself, i nourished my body.

me when i was weight-restored/recovered is a lot like what pro-ana blogs think they will achieve by ‘getting’ anorexia.

now, a year later, here i am at the bottom picture. i’ve relapsed. i feel horrible all the time (physically & mentally).

i might not weigh as much as i did in the first picture, but i feel a million times bigger. every minute of every day is torture.

torture because i’m ripping my family apart. torture because i’m isolating myself. torture because i’m killing myself and i can’t stop. torture because anorexia physically hurts. i have to sit on pillows and i can’t wear a purse strap anymore because it’s excruciatingly painful. i can’t hug my boyfriend or hold my puppy.

an eating disorder won’t make you happy. an eating disorder will destroy you.

(via greenteacat-deactivated20130403)